Hope

Hope:
You think will you clear your exams even after having not done well.
Hope:
You think you won't get screwed even after coming home really late.
Hope:
That he will realise his mistake and come back to you.
Hope:
Thinking it will work out inspite it being obvious it won't.
Hope:
Your dad will not find out about the scratch on the car.
Hope:
Thinking that everything will be alright.
Hope:
That friends won't notice the bite on your neck :P
Hope:
Skipping a signal right infront of the cop.
Hope:
One day you will find the love of your life.
Hope:
You will accidently meet again somewhere.

Hope, stupid thing isn't it? A little hope makes you do what not. They say you should always have hopes. But when u lose hopes, that is when u face reality. Hope keeps us away reality in most of the cases, and keeps us happy little longer. Life's one of the best elements, HOPE!

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Go back

Lying beside you,
I realise,
That we are no more,
What we used to be,
Yes we are not in love,
Anymore.
How I wish we were,
All the afternoons spent doing nothing,
The feeling of incompleteness when apart,
The joy of being in each others arms,
Everything just got killed,
Killed by distance,
Killed by the pain of being apart,
I loved you with all my heart,
Thought I could wait forever,
Don't know where I went wrong,
I wish we could go back,
To being happy together,
Go back to being us,
Go back to being WE instead of I,
Go back to being happily in love :(

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Updates

College re-opened, I am back to hostel. Finally, in FINAL year, a super senior, feels good. Tho, I enjoy being at home, being back in hostel, feels different. Here I have a another identity then just a daughter and sister. It's just a year left, I've no idea what I want to do next. But, I am pretty sure gonna miss this place, the silent echoing corridors, long walks from the gate, everything. Even though this year barely started, they say you never realise how final year passes away and everything comes to an end. And nothing remains the same ever. Hmmm...
Last month, I did realised that its true when they say, you make real friends in college, and those are the one's who will last through out your life. Yes, I would like to believe, I finally know who my friends are, and I am pretty sure, they will be there for me through out the life. Touchwood.
There is a busy month ahead, lot of things to be figured out, lot of decisions to be taken.
Will keep you updated :)
Till then wish me luck!
And yeah I know I haven't been writing regularly, now that I am back to normal life, I will try my best to do so.
Lots of love :)

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For you :)

You make me SMILE :)
You BELIVE in ME.
I fit PERFECTLY in your ARMS :)
You LISTEN to me go on and on about useless things.
You LET me irritate you (tho, I dont do it purposefully :P)
You think I look HOT even on my bad bad days.
You DONT cut the call, even when I am not talking but just keep crying.
You are the BEST kisser! ;)
You are the most GENUINE person I have ever met.
You have the cutest brown EYES! :)
You TOLERATE all my moods swings!
You give me all your CHOCOLATE's even though you love it, more then me.
You eyes TWINKLE when you see me dressed up..:)
You PROUDLY show off that I am your girl.
You LOVE me a LOT!

And you know what honey??
I love you a lot too, and these have been the best TWO years of my life!!! :)

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Another Ending

I met a guy; I met him in a club. I met him when I was drunk. Not exactly drunk, but yeah alcohol was controlling my thought process, and at that moment I taught I was crazy and fun to talk to the cutest guy in the club. It was just for the tonight, yes, after this night, I’ll never see him again.

But, things don’t exactly happen like you expect to, does it?

I did meet him again, not once but 5 more times.

Was I seeing him? No. where we even dating each other? No. where we really good friends? No.

What was between us? I still don’t know, and I didn’t want to give it a name.

Long distance is hard, though you keep talking every day, there will be some emptiness around you. It gets worse. Especially with couples around. So when suddenly a guy comes into your life, taking care of you and treating you in a way no one ever as, you are bound to do some stupid things. But, thankfully I have a boyfriend who understood this.

I did some things too. No I didn’t cross any of my limits. Not physically at least.

But, yeah, I did let my emotions go a little out of control. I put a lot of things on risks. I forgot, that I wasn’t supposed to expect anything. So life became a little mess, with loads of distractions.

Now, it’s over.  how?  I don’t know. The magic vanished. When I think of it, there was nothing there in the very first place. Atleast not something we could give it a name too.

It does feel weird, since it happened all of a sudden, though it took me around 3 days to realize it and accept it. It’s not like I expected it to last forever. Best thing about it, I feel like some burden is taken away from me. I don’t have to worry about anything, I no longer have to hide things, and I no longer have lie.

Yes, life’s almost normal..:)

Of chances..

Isn't it ironic, that when you meet someone new, and you start liking them, and getting close, you expect them to behave and understand you, like the previous person did. Comparisons are though just inevitable. This happens especially in relationships. Even though you may see someone complaining endlessly about how horrible her ex-boyfriend was, but after sometime or months or year into a new relationship,same person would be wishing how her current boyfriend was like her ex atleast at some point. We start expecting things, even without trying to understand the other person, or even without giving them a chance to know you.
Is it because we are used tob the other person so much, or it generally takes time to adjust to new things. Whatever it is, relationships takes a lot of time, effort, patience, to know a person, to understand, to adjust. When all that comes to an end, all that is just waste, of no use at all. That chapter in life is over, you are never going to study that again.
Is there any point in getting into one?? Answer just varies, sometimes it's a yes, sometimes its no.

You!!!

From a long time, I wanted to write about you. Yes, you. I know you hate it when I do something like this. I know you don't know how to react or what to say. I know even if you read it, you will pretend like you haven't. I know you feel akward when I put you in such situations. I know how you feel, I really do. I have seen my friends go through it when someone goes out of their way to make them feel special. I always wonder why people who like it don't get it and people who don't deserve get it??? Isn't life unfair???
There are so many people in my life, so things to write about..why am I writing about you?? why do I constantly keep thinking about you?? why do I forget the world when I am talking to you?? Why do I even stop worrying about me, when it comes to you?? Why does it happen??? Does it happen to you to?? Do you feel the same way I do??
My friend  asked me.."is this love?? what is love??" I didn't know what to tell her, cause I didn't know the answer myself.
There are so many questions I want to ask, I know how you hate questions. I sometimes wonder if you were always like this, you weren't. I know. I sometimes wish I could see that you too..but I know that you is no more. You have changed.. I am not complaining, you know that, you know how happy I am. But you also know when it comes to you, I am very selfish and want everything.


PS: I didn't know what I was writing when I started it, I ended it there cz I didn't know how to end it. Hope it's not turned out to be bad!

Nostalgic

This was the one of the first pictures taken from my new phone, which my parents gifted me for my birthday.
I had just reached college at 7.30 a.m. tired from traveling whole night, right leg bandaged unable to walk properly, along with that I had to carry all my luggage!
I had just got into long distance relationship, he was in some other country now, after he left, there was nothing going right for me, I even tripped and fell in a hole with my leg bleeding and no one around me to pull me up also.
I called up my mom and dad. Almost cried.
But more then that I missed him, I wanted to call him and tell him I hurt my leg, and that it was bleeding,I wanted him to say "appi, it's gonna be alright, don't worry" and make me forget about the pain.
Unfortunately, he didn't have his phone connection yet. There was no way I could contact him. I cried myself to sleep in the bus.
At around 2'o clock in the night, he called me up, by that time the whole leg was swollen, but just listening to his voice made me feel so much better, there was someone for me.
The whole long distance has made me stronger and independent. And I am glad I am doing things on my own, taking decisions on my own, have more time for me and my friends.
But I miss him, and I have to wait months together to see him again.

LOVE STORIES!

 I asked some of my friends about what are the crazy/stupid/sweet/cute things they have done in love which they wouldn’t have done otherwise, here are some answers...

• ·         Spend whole night on road in front of the girl’s house, till 6’oclock in the morning, and talking on phone with her. Yes he was lucky enough not be caught by cops.
• ·         Set up a date with another girl.
• ·         Shout loudly for the whole world to hear, “isn’t my fiancé yummy???”
• ·         Buy  a laptop.
• ·         Travel each day for 3 hours; just to meet the girl and travel back again for 3 hours.
• ·         Every time the girl came home, he had to cook and feed her with his hands, cooking included even making tea for her, yes; she didn’t even move her ass.
• ·         Work in the hotel, to buy a gift.
• ·         Make a soft toy.
• ·         Steal money.
•          Make a heart shaped metal, in workshop, day before exams.
•     Go on the stage, in a crowded auditorium and say “I love you ____”

These are just a few answers, there many more things said and done in love. Some love stories work out, while the others just end half way. But, being in love is the best feeling in the world.

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!!!

DAY SIXTEEN : IT GIRL

GUTEN MORGEN...:)

That is good morning in deutsch, well I know its not morning, but I learnt it today so just showing it off.

Well, another thing I have been doing these holidays is playing the game "IT GIRL" on facebook. It the easiest game, easier then the block game. The whole game is about shopping and dressing up.You ask me why I am playing it??? well, who doesnt like shoppin and dressing up? atleast I do!!

 In that stupid game I had a stupid boyfriend, who dumped me today, cause I wasnt paying him enough attention, giving him enough kisses, and buying him gifts.I am not making this shit up, its TRUE.

Its quite a different thing that I have new boyfriend now,again in the game, well he's much cuter then the earlier one, he's a real estate agent or something.The older one was a dentist.Now I have to keep that guy happy.

I went shopping today, got stuff I wanted from a long time. So happy :):)

And also my friends are coming tommorow, so very excited!!

Btw, that reminds me, my papa said a clear NO to me for the first time, I usually get permission for everything I ask for, he didnt even tell me anything when he saw my red hair, so i'm a little shocked.But I know he will let me or make other arrangements atleast.So no worries.

Have a nice day everyone.
I'll learn to say in deustch tomorrow..:)

I'm uploading the photo of the guy i'm totally crazy about, can do anything to touch his dimple, and I mean it!

This is JERRY, isnt he just cute and hot and everything together???!! he is my defination of HOT guy!!!

I can stare at this all day.

And total page views just crossed 1000!!! :):):)

Love you everyone, who ever visted to read my colours, double love you for those people who kept coming back, and triple love you for all the people I forced to read it!!

DAY NINE

Your views on drugs, alcohol and religion



DRUGS:

            Having grown up in not so big city, I never knew these things existed until I started talking to this guy say X, who was once a addict, and then how his parents bought him back home when they realised about it, stopped his education, no more pocket money, nor there was availability in this place to buy it.So eventually he quit. Before you judge him, he wasn't this rich,spoiled guy or something. He was a regular guy, from regular college, regular family, but bad friends. His left hand is totally scarred cause he used to cut his hand, put brown sugar, and put on a band aid.So that it would affect him fast.

Well, the whole thing left a clear picture in my head, about how drugs can destroy your life. So NO to drugs anytime of my life.

ALCOHOL:

                  I am now in one of those "crazy-drinking" phase in college. I had my first sip of beer last year, and slowly everything followed. Well, its fun, and I cant stop thinking about when we are gonna get drunk next.I have always had a better time when I drink with my girlfriends, we laugh, we talk crazy shit, we sing, they always listen when you get emotional sometimes,even if they are equally drunk, give you a hug and a kiss to make you feel better. Whenever I have got drunk with guys or boyfriend, I have more not-so-good memories then the happy one's. I have been dumped,cried,got lost,had to fight for attention when he found stupid cricket or some song more interesting then the drunk me!. This may sound filmy, but I want those situations which we see in movies,where the actress gets drunk and starts acting all cranky and the actor takes care of her like a baby, and gets her home.Hope the bad jinx breaks soon.

RELIGION:

                  This is one topic when people discuss, I try to get out from that place.Because, this usually leads to the question of which caste are you, and that is not something I like to talk about. It doesn't mean that I mean I am not proud of who I am, I am proud about it, but unless you are in my shoes, you probably would never understand. I don't understand why this whole thing called religion,caste,sub caste,minority, had to exist and make it difficult for some people.


PS: this might have come out a little emotional, maybe I am emotional right now I dono :)

Some of those moments...

Sometimes its not a big thing that leaves a mark, its little little things in our day to day life that makes an impression...
when a baby, looks at you and smiles


without realising,you hold hands when crossing the road


 unexpected thank you note


smell of freshly washed dried clothes


unexpected and FAST downloading speed.


the time when you know that, things between you and him is more den friendship.


hot water bath after a tiring day.


single red rose.


hand written letter
.
clearing when you thought you will fail


warm wet sand in the beach.
 
last hug,when u know u wont see each other for a long time.


when someone keeps checking your temperature when ill.


 looking at your baby photos.


fighting for hot chocolate cake.


giggling with your girls,checking out some hot guy.


going through old stuffs, and finding something you thought was lost.


when you realise its the last five mins for bell,when u r really hungry


when chandler propsed monica,when ross yells"did she get off the plane?did she get off the plane?", when
pheobe spoke to her triplets,when rachel turned thirty.


when people call to wish you on your birthday, and you cant pick it up cause you are attending some stupid boring lecture.


soft pillow and warm blanket on a cold night


 you are waiting,counting every min he is on phone with some other female,comes back smiles and says "jealous?" and you say "why should I be jealous?"


last exam.


proud look in your parents eyes.

MOMENTS LIKE THESE MAKE LIFE!!!!

Heart Break

My friend comes to me early in the morning stinking of cigarette and alcohol.

Me- y this bad?

Friend- smoked up whole night, we broke up (he n his gf)

next thing that happened I will never ever forget in my life.. He rolled up

his sleeves n showed me his hand which was badly cut, with blood dried

all over!!!(shudder)

I do realise that it is a very hard time and that you end up doing

something irrational.

But when someone breaks your heart that bad,isn't it obvious that they

don't deserve you?!

Y do you want to walk around carrying that scar for the rest of your life?! Its

just so so stupid!!

Other things I have seen people tried doing,

• jumping from 3rd floor!
• run off to goa!( I know GOA!!)
• lock herself in her room with knife in hand!( god! all of us outside were so scared!)
• stop eating, it was so bad that he was actually admitted!
• follow the guy everywhere!
• go complain her parents about what she did to him!(so dumb!)
• but, cutting hand is like the most favorite.